Grazer, yep that's me!

Food. The essential need to survive, aside from water. I don't eat much food according to most. Okay, actually, most people say that I starve myself because when I eat meals with them I barely eat anything. Not my fault. I don't like eating huge amounts of food in one setting. I can't. I mean I could if I wanted to but that would result in being extremely ill later. Why do I get ill from eating large amounts of food in one setting? IBS, better known as Irritable Bowl Syndrome.

Basically, my intestines don't like food. Yes, weird, I know. The acids in my stomach and intestines react crazily to the food, and the peristalsis (muscle contractions) of my intestines is irregular which causes extreme cramping. This cramping can become so unbearable that I can be reduced to tears in a matter of minutes. This is one reason why I went vegetarian. Not the main reason but one of them. Ever since I went vegetarian I haven't cried from pain. That's because the pain has dropped tremendously due to cutting murdered animals out of my diet. This is due to the fact that meat is harder to digest than anything else. Unless you fancy metal. Then that would be the hardest. XD

On a side note, I prefer to graze, like a horse. In other words, I eat a small breakfast, then eat a snack, have a small meal for lunch, eat another snack, and have a small meal for dinner. I DO eat. You people just aren't around when I do. Ask my family, or Jaki or Tom. They've been around me enough to know that I EAT FOOD on a regular basis. When eating meals my stomach, intestines, and my whole body gives me a warning that says "Hey, no more food! You'll be sick!" I can't even explain the feeling. It's sorta like when there's a bad storm coming and you're instincts freak out and try to tell you. Thanks to my IBS I prefer to drink fluids, water mainly, more than anything else. A lot of people like to tell me that I'm going to give myself water poisoning, but my doctor told me that it is normal especially since I also have kidney problems. It's my body's way of caring for it's needs without causing more pain and annoyance for me. If I could live off of apples and water, I'd gladly do so, but unfortunately I cannot.

Why am I posting on this? I'm sick and tired of people saying that I don't eat and that I starve myself. Okay, first off if I WAS starving myself, which I'm not, then would I still weigh the same amount since last year? No. I'd weigh less. Not to mention that I work out and I still haven't lost or gained weight. According to http://www.healthsystem.virginia.edu/assets/UVAHealth/ssi/includes/hbwcalc.html#results

I actually weigh the ideal and healthy weight of someone my age and height.

Thus ends my rant. Now, back to studying for my freakin' exams.

~Fruit Bat

revalation

I worked at a community christmas event this morning- volunteered some of my time, just to get checked off on a list I don't really care about. And I had fun, I was a door-greeter at a cabin, and there was someone with me that I was able to talk with, and he was very nice.
But ever since then, I've been in a bad mood- and now I think I know why.
I'm homesick, stronger than it's been ever since the first week.
There's only eighteen days till Christmas and every minute of them not filled with my family feels like a waste.
I can't focus- even with finals looming tomorrow, I can't settle, and I'm horrible company. (Sorry about that, Fruit Bat)
I want to go home and wear my santa hat and the bells that drive evil glare insane. I want to INSIST that we watch all of our christmas classics, The Santa Clause, How the Grinch Stole Christmas, Rudolf the Red-Nosed Reindeer, Frosty the Snow Man, A Charlie Brown Christmas and Winnie the Pooh and Christmas too, while playing our family card games. I want to sit in the rocking chair and just stare at the tree, and try to keep the cat from opening the gifts. I want to walk in the Wal-mart parking lot singing Silver Bells, and greet people with "Merry Christmas!" I want to watch my little brother and sister try to convince mom and dad that they really ought to be allowed to open one gift on christmas eve, and I want all of us kids to sleep in one room on christmas eve night, too excited to really sleep, and daring each other to guess what we gave them. I want to lie awake at four in the morning on Christmas day, knowing that I still have at least four hours, and probably five, before we're even allowed to go downstairs. I want to argue over which of us gets to wear the santa hat this year and pass out the presents, and I want to go to Candlelight Communion and sing in a darkly illuminated mass of believers. I want to sneak red and green m&m's out of the glass christmas tree dish at home, and act suprised when they're all gone. I want to bug my mom to get apple cider so that we can have hot apple cider- I want to sit in the back of the pickup on christmas eve night, bundled up warm and burning my tongue on hot chocolate while we drive around looking at christmas lights, with Squirt and I singing whatever christmas carols pop into our heads. I want to go to bed at night with the glow of christmas lights stealing through my window, and I want to try getting a note- any note- out of the christmas horn that so far only three of us have been able to play. I want to try and convince my family that the Second Santa Clause was not as good as the first, and I want to wrap up in my red blanket and stalk around the house as though it is a cape. I want to sit at the table for dinner and just listen.
All this, and so much more- like listening to our favorite christmas songs all day.
Right now, I can't listen to one of my favorites.
If I hear "I'll be home for Christmas," I'll start crying.

On the Third day...

We step out of the Oniwabanshuu and into the Kenshin-gumi, starting with Megumi, the fox lady.

Seriously, the series tells us (repeatedly) that she is a "fox".

Here's Megumi Takani, she's actually the one that I've worked the hardest on- because I'm not happy with her color. I went from brown to gold to darker gold- and I'm still not happy, but I don't have time to waste on her.

In the show, Megumi is a smart and flirty doctor (hence the name "fox") who is also very beautiful. It just sort of made sense that the Kenshin group would eventually get a doctor- heaven knows they need one on call all the time.

As always, I only colored and tweaked the picture, which belongs to Kay Fedewa of the Black Blood Alliance.

On the second day...

On the second day of the wolves, we have a not-wolf. Meet Misao Makimachi, the Jackal.

Again, I don't want a lot of grief- I know that her tail is too fluffy, but if I'm ignoring the fact that Jackals live in Africa and would probably never meet a wolf outside of a zoo...

Misao, like Aoshi is a ninja- but she's a very exuberant one... I thought about making her a coyote, but it just didn't seem right.

As with Aoshi, if anyone has a better idea for what she should have been, please, let me know.

Also, should I be putting up pictures of the actual characters so that you guys can compare? Or am I overthinking this?

Anyway, there she is- again the design is not by me, I just tweaked and colored it.

Seven days to the Wolves

Yeah! Seven days to the Wolves, thus, Seven wolves, and a bonus wolf on the seventh day.

I had this crazy idea a while back of taking the characters from Rurouni Kenshin and making them animals- I even have a sort-of plotline, though I don't know that I'll ever get around to writing it- it's sorta pointless to write a story on something that isn't yours... >.<

But, anyway, I've been taking some wolf drawings (NOT BY ME. CREDIT GOES COMPLETELY TO KAY FEDEWA OF THE BLACKBLOOD ALLIANCE. I DID THESE PICTURES FOR MY OWN PERSONAL AMUSEMENT, I DON'T WANT ANY MONEY FROM THEM, BUT STILL, I APOLOGIZE TO THE ARTIST!) and recoloring them to fit with the RK cast members that I've chosen. I'll be trying to post a wolf a day.

First up is Aoshi Shinomori, since he's a tall human, he'd probably be a tall wolf. He's a timberwolf, the silvery parts are scars (yes, Aoshi has scars. A lot, actually, if you look at his second fight with Kenshin.) That thing on his leg is an armwarmer/armor thing... it's mostly there because he's a ninja... ninja wolf! >.>;

He may not be mine but I worked hard on him gosh darn it! And I think he's pretty!

For the purposes of this story, I'm ignoring some basic facts of nature, so I don't want any grief about some of the animals that I picked for the characters. If you think you can do better, please, show me.

sserts

Wait... strike that, reverse it.

I've got a paper due Thursday. 6 pages at least.

Right now I have about 3- and serious writers block.

Just complaining really quick.

Have to stare at the blinking cursor some more now.

EDIT: Okay! Now I'm done!

Hikari Toya Commited Suicide

The title says it all. My Betta fish, Hikari Toya, he jumped out of the fish tank while I was on vacation for Thanksgiving.

Vul and I walked into my dorm, and I ran over to see how Hikari Toya did over the break. The thing was, there was no Hikari Toya present. We looked around the tank but still couldn't find him. I helped Vul take her stuff to her dorm and then began pulling my desk out from the wall. I was convinced that he somehow had managed to jump out of the tank. Nope, no fish behind the desk. I then gave up, took a shower, contemplating if someone was playing a cruel joke on me. Then I started to clear off my desk when BAM! There he was! Dead, stiff, and shriveled up behind my books, sitting on my test. I freaked and didn't know what to do at first. My fish HAD jumped out of the tank, and killed himself.

I'm not sure why he did it or if he'd been practicing but there is only one way out of the tank; a little hole meant for feeding the fish. Yes, he some how managed to jumped just right and get out of the tank. Successfully killing himself. It was pretty traumatizing, finding him dead like that. Poor Hikari Toya. I wish I knew why he did it. Now there's this joke going around that he wanted to come with me so he tried following. *sigh* I feel terrible. I knew I should have just brought him with me. Something had been telling me to but I ignored The Voice. NEVER ignore The Voice. Your instincts are usually correct. I really need to learn this.

Anyways, back to practicing my speech. Ttyl, peace! *does the peace sign* Wow...I'm lame...